I will live how I died (in my head) by Panacea: song meaning
What I will live how I died (in my head) by Panacea is about: the meaning, sound and story behind track 2 of the Brighton grunge album Remedies for nothing.
Panacea
11/7/20261 min read
I will live how I died (in my head) is track 2 on Remedies for nothing, the 2025 debut album by Panacea, a four-piece grunge project from Brighton. It runs 4 minutes 3 seconds. It was also released as a single.
The gap between who you are and who you perform.
What is I will live how I died (in my head) about?
I will live how I died (in my head) is about the distance between the person you are inside and the version of yourself you show the world. In public you're fine, functional, smiling in photos. In your head, something has already given up.
The title is deliberately awkward. It captures that feeling of going through the motions of a life while part of you has checked out, and of deciding to keep living anyway, on your own terms, even if those terms only exist in your head.
What does I will live how I died (in my head) sound like?
Beauty and brutality, often at the same time. Quiet, almost pretty verses that break into a distorted chorus, which is the loud-quiet-loud dynamic grunge was built on.
Song facts
Artist: Panacea (Brighton, England)
Album: Remedies for nothing (2025)
Track number: 2 of 12
Length: 4:03
Genre: grunge, alternative rock
Released as a single: yes
Where to listen
Stream I will live how I died (in my head) on Spotify, Apple Music and Deezer, or buy it on Bandcamp. See all links on the Remedies for nothing album page.
Frequently asked questions
What does I will live how I died (in my head) mean?
It's about performing being okay on the outside while feeling hollow inside, and choosing to keep going regardless.
Is it a single?
Yes. It's one of three singles from Remedies for nothing and is track 2 on the album.
More from Remedies for nothing
Previous track: So full of empty promises
Next track: Rent day
Related: Half-life
Related: Scroll damage
Contact
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